Soo many things buzzing around my frantic little brain at the moment - most of it do with indecision about my work, my style.... my life. I have been staying up so late as I cannot sleep and having to take a notebook with me to bed as I keep waking up with so many ideas that I just cannot settle and relax.
As it has really been soo long since I have been truly productively and consistantly creative ,I am finding that I have forgotten how. The usual and 'hard to live with' consequence of that is that I am being drawn to view the work of people who greatly inspire me and the consequence of THAT is that I am so conscious of how I measure up - and the conclusion is, not very well. I see the things I love about other people's work and I forget the things I am good at (or forget how to be good at those things) and I end up feeling......lost.
The fact is that all the ideas and thoughts swimming round in my thoughts - well I cannot possibly do it all. I want to paint, I want to sew, I want to knit, I want to make costumes, I want to do collaged art, I want to illustrate, I want to make art jewellery, I want to do leatherwork......where will it end! Of course I want to do it all in my own style and to express the things I love about creating, but I do need to refine my ideas a little and settle to one or 2 things - otherwise I will achieve nothing! Oh and I want to write poetry and a childrens book too.... oh and make a puppet .... oh gosh.
So in order to try and settle down to only a few achievable but nonetheless very exciting things, I have today emailed a gallery about creating work for an exhibition and also am going to get together a proposal in for another. The first is a burlesque exhibtion which is being set up by an artist and photographer and I would love to make a themed corset based costume for this and also some hanging art work. The second exhibition which I need to get together a proposal for is a gallery looking for artists to submit work based on fairytales and myths. Again I would love to make a costume and work on some artwork for this - so just a couple of wee things as you can see! But I think they would be great for getting me focussed and refining my ideas - also for redeveloping my style again. At least that is the plan! I really hope they would like me to be involved as they could be great opportunities for getting my work seen and I really think they would challenge me to come up with the work which I know I can do, given the chance and with a wee bit of confidence.
So there you have it - my mini (but to me all consuming) creative crisis. Here are a couple of wee pieces I have produced over the last couple of days. The one above is The Broken Hearted Muse . The image on the left is The Solitary Vision and both are available to buy in my etsy store.
So I am off to see my web designer about the latest developments to my site (the front page is up and running - just needs a couple of tweaks then I should be ready for the big reveal!!) and then back to finish up a couple of accessory projects I have been working on and then hopefully time to start this weeks etsy creative challenge. I am so excited by this and cannot wait to get started. The challenge is to make a piece influenced by a singer and I have decided to choose....well should I say.... Oh go on then, it has to of course be Kate Bush. But Ssssh - don't tell anyone.......
