A Tortuous Entry Into The World Of The Blogger

So here we go - my first fearful beginnings into blogging- and yes - to me it is fearful... I am not and probably will never be html literate - in all honesty I am not even entirely sure what that is. However I see the blogs of those I respect and admire and think - 'I would like to have a wee go at that.....'

So here goes - the first of my mutterings and sometimes daily thoughts....

I have been thinking alot lately about my time management and the fact that I need to prioritise more and set aside occassions to make more of 'myself' and get back to the things that I love doing. My life recently has been about setting up Gilfling's Designs - my work, my supposed career in costume design but I am at a stage where I am really having to re-evaluate what that actually is.

I miss just creating, designing, expressing 'myself' and the things I love. So much of Gilfling's Designs has been about putting pressure on myself to see through my business plan, but I am now realizing that aspects of that have to be adaptable and change, if only to get back to the heart of what it is I want to achieve. With the support of those who have helped me on the business course and with the burden of receiving funding (and of course I am eternally grateful for that and do not mean to seem as if I am taking it for granted....) I feel that I have put pressure on myself to make a living out of what I do, to have a certain success by a certain time limit and I have (although not forgotten) put aside to an extent, the reasons why I wanted to follow the path of a creator and artist in the first place.

So November will be a month of rediscovering what it is that I want, what I see for myself in the future in as much as I can get back to doing what I love. So new beginnings, new designs, new work...to come..... An effort to seek pleasure and fulfilment in what it is I am doing, to find a certain amount of freedom in doing the work I love and care about.

That, is what I am excited about.

And that, is the challenge.